I do feel lonely at times and I do push people away. I am afraid that it will hurt again and in the quest to be immune to pain, I have lost touch with who I am to myself.
I am neither sad nor happy, I do enjoy my time and I try to do justice to the ideas in my head. I follow what my heart tells me to do.
I have wronged humans who love me and distanced myself from them.
I don’t know how to change this, but I am ready to accept that I can’t go on like this forever.